I haven't been blogging for a while 'cause I have been damn busy (yeah). So i wrote down all the things that took place those past few days. Here we go... *drum roll*

Nov. 19, Sunday
Pacman vs. El Terrible

I woke up 9:30 to get all the chores done in time for Pacman's match today with Morales. I have been anticipating it 'cause I swear I am a fan of Manny :) I was expecting a LOT. I thought it will be a good match. Wrong. All it took was just three rounds and Manny won. I haven't even had my adrenaline rush satisfied. Nakakabitin talaga. I was so happy for Pacman ('cause I was rooting for him, obviously) . But a part of me wanted Morales to win. Naaawa kasi ako. If he didn't force himself to crash diet it would've been a better match, I think. Kaya nanood na lang ako ng Knockout dahil hindi ako nakuntento sa bakbakan. Bear with me, sometimes or most of the time I just loooove testosterone movies. ", Congrats, Manny!


Nov. 22, Wednesday
'Wag Kang Lilingon!

I was really looking forward to watching Happy Feet. But heck, I suddenly remembered that my SM complimentary pass in not valid on the first day of showing and TODAY is the first day of showing of Happy Feet. Baaad. So Rain and I ended up watching 'Wag Kang Lilingon. It was supposed to be a date with Jermaine and Rain but Maine doesn't like horror movies so I ended up going to the movies with Rain lang. Next time na lang daw kami date ni Maine. :) Maganda pala 'yung 'Wag kang Lilingon. Nakakagulat! And I love the twist of the story. It sured scared the hell out of me. Matatakutin pa naman ako. Thanks honey ko for the date. =)


Nov. 23, Thursday
you complete me

"Gusto kitang yakapin nang mahigpit para maparamdam ko sa'yo kung gano ka kahalaga at gano kita kamahal."

Who wouldn't melt in that? Awww... :)


Nov. 24, Friday

7pm I fetched my besh Che-Che 'cause we're going to Star City. But goodness knows it was sooooo boring! Ang konti kasi ng rides e. Imagine, we rode zyklon loop 5 times, flying carpet 2 times and surf dance 3 times. Panget. Btw, I saw Sheila Mae Ugawa pala. Kinalabit niya ako and she said "hi". Went home around 12am na and had an inuman session on our living room couches with my oh-so-loving bro. It's 3:30 am na pala, i'm gettin' sleepy. Gotta go! Have a good night [morning?] everyone! Zzzzzz.....


Nov. 25, Saturday

This is definitely the highlight of my entire week. Bonding with Rain's family. Rain texted me asking if I want to go out today with his mom, dad and bro. 'Course I said yes! By 12pm we were on our way to SM Megamall. Had lunch at Kenny Rogers, went to Timezone and had a great time, went to the movies to watch Fragile (didn't like it!), had dinner at Sizzling Plate, went to Timezone again 'tas uwi na. Ansaya ko! :) :)


Nov. 27, Monday
i'm a fan

I don't watch much of Pinoy reality TV shows. Dunno why. I'm just not fond of it. But recently, I catched a glimpse of Pinoy Dream Academy and got interested in it. Soon i was hooked and found myself in front of the boob tube every night. And I admit I've got my own favorites too.

I'm crushing BIGTIME on Ronnie Liang. Tall, handsome, moreno, chinito. Perfect, I must say. No wonder a lot of girls go gaga over him. He's got the good looks and the talent. He's really a crowd favorite. Now, honestly I don't think Ronnie will make it as the grand winner. I'm not underestrimating his talent but I think Panky Trinidad will bag the title. People tend to misunderstand her and call her names. She can be so insensitive to other's feelings (more often to Rosita's). I hope the fans of Panky won't take it personally on me. Hey, I'm just voicing out my opinion. Anyway, let's get to another scholar who caught my eye. Irish Tomas may seem like a bitch and a brat girl-next-door but she is no such thing. In fact, I think she is one of the most promising scholar in the academy. Her go-getter and "palaban" attitude is a big must-have as she conquers every trial that comes her way. She is a loving daughter, a friend and has a big heart. Need to say more?

As the remaining scholars (Rosita, Ronnie, Jay-R, Chad, Yvan, Yeng, Panky and Emman) pave their way towards their goal, I hope they keep their feet firmly on the ground. The whole world is watching as each of them struggles to achieve their dreams and become better persons. We'll be seeing more of them for sure.


yeng



ronnie



eman



chad



panky



jay-r



rosita



irish



yvan

"Every once in a while, people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard but if you look close enough, you find help in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of the one you love and if you're the luckiest person in this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back." -Nathan Scott, One Tree Hill

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Caroling is fast approaching and I STILL CAN'T get the notes right. Goddamn it! Rar.

Hardest things in love:

1. Flashing your smile to someone you don't want to see.
2. Bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget.
3. Showing that you care.
4. Finding a way to mend a broken heart.
5. Learning that you've been used by someone you truly love.
6. Saying "i love you" when you mean it and when you don't.
7. Letting go of a person you've just learned to love.
8. Realizing that you love somebody you've just taken for granted.
9. Realizing that you love the person you've just broken up with.
10. Waiting for promises you know he or she'll never keep.
11. Saying your love for someone who loves somebody else.
12. Reminscing the good times you shared together.
13. Shielding your heart to love somebody.
14. Trying to hide what you really feel.
15. Having a commitment with someone that you know would not last.
16. Trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes.
17. Sharing the one you love with someone else.
18. Loving a person too much.
19. Giving up someone you never thought of giving up.
20. Falling in love for the first time.
21. Loving someone you haven't seen.
22. Having the right love at the wrong time.
23. Exerting effort to make the relationship alst or work.
24. Not being appreciated when you know you've given your best.
25. Taking the risk to fall in love again.
26. Hiding your relationship from someone else.
27. Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend.
28. Choosing between two persons whom you really love.
29. Finding out that you can never have the person you just let go of back.
30. Seeing the person you love with someone else.
31. Learning that the person who claimed to have loved you so much never really cared.
32. seeing the one you love fall for someone else.
33. Falling for your best friend and knowing that things can never be the same again.
34. Learning to trust after you have been burned.
35. Accepting that it was not meant to be.
36. Smiling when all you want to do is cry.
37. Falling and knowing that it can never be.
38. Not being able to love the person who truly cares for you.
39. Saying that you can never love a person the way he loves you.
40. Hearing that he can never love you the way that you love him.
41. Being friends again and learning to let go of each other 'coz you both know it is better that way.
42. Convincing oneself that you are not in love when you know that you are.
43. Saying that you are over someone you still love.
44. Having to let go because you know that he/she deserves someone else.
45. Trying not to remember how perfect everything used to be.

Alin dyan ang naranasan mo na? Diyos ko, kalokang ma-in love.

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I am currently reading If LOVE is a GAME, THESE are the RULES by Cherie Carter-Scott. Basahin mo, marami kang matututunan. Promise!

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Sa'yo, kung nadamay ka man sa init ng ulo ko kahapon, pasensya na. Bati na tayo, please?




Btw im grounded, AGAIN it SUCKS mom!! Grounding me doesnt make me better. Rar. I've been grounded like 139028624923512978541035798123567123650813265 times. The reasons? Well i was a bad girl:

*got home around 1am drunk, normal school day..
*going home late
*my mom found 2 cans of san mig light in my bag
*cutted class*

That was before!!! I'm a good girl now! :)

If a child lives with criticism
He learns to condemn.
If he lives with pity
He learns to be sorry for himself.
If he lives with ridicule
He learns to be shy.
If he lives with shame
He learns to be ashamed of himself.

How very well said. Sadly though, such is the story of my life. Ever since I was a kid I was always the OC (outcast) one. I grew up learning to be ashamed of myself. Thinking that I am not capable of anything. I tried erasing those moments in my life when I felt really down by those people who should be taking care of me, encouraging me and loving me. And just recently, AGAIN, I found myself wallowing in pity, suddenly being so quiet and sulking myself in a deep reverie. I was never the talkative person when I'm at home. In fact, I prefer to stay in my own little world, where I can be myself and not have anyone tell me what I should do but this time, this kind of silence is defeaning. Somehow I wish I live a different life. I always go against the norm and I'm somewhat a rebel. But why blame me? This is ME and this is how I will be. Is it really that hard accepting me and my beliefs? Goddamn it! I dodn't want to believe that life sucks but it's giving me every reason to hate it. But then again, I still DO have faith that someday things will be different.

Ilang araw rin akong nawala. Kaya heto, isang mabilis na update lang.

Oct. 26
Nag-away na naman kami. At nakipag-cool off ako. =/ But now we're back together. 'Ganon lang kadali 'yun para sa'min. Hee hee!

Oct. 27
I miss my bonding girls soooo much! Tinext ako ni Jermaine dahil dadaan daw sila ni Marian sa bahay para kunin na ni Marian ang inaamag niyang slippers sa akin. Sabay niyaya nila akong mag-MOA kasama si Monique at Mei. At since medyo broken hearted ako, ayown e 'di sama para makalimot. Kaysa naman magmukmok 'di ba? Nilibre kami ni Marian sa Chef 'd Angelo. Charap!! Kaya mahal kita Marian e, binubusog mo ako. Wahahaha! Pero seryoso, na-miss ko talaga sila lahat ng chubra!

Oct. 28
Red carpet party ni Mik sa Dasma! Motif: Movie characters. I looove my Charlie's Angels costume a la Cameron Diaz.. =) And everyone told me i look superb! It's an overnight party kaya right after that, pool party time!!! Hangkyuuuut ng two piece bikini ko. <3>






Alam nyo ba...

Nakakapraning sa bahay? Isang malaking PAKSYET!

Nagawa ko ang isang bagay na 'di ko akalaing magagawa ko?

Nalaman kong tatanggapin ako ng ga kaibigan ko kahit ano pang magawa ko?

Inaaway na naman nila 'ko?

Pinaglalawayan ko na ang Flushed Away?

'Masaya ako dahil sa wakas my love life na ang kaibigan ko? Way to go!

I'll update this some other time. Babush. :)

Song Playin': Bone Thugs n Harmony's Resurrection