Whew, I can't believe it's midterms already! Duguan na naman ng utak itech! Nooooo!!!! Oh well. Anyhoo, I'm at the computer shop near the campus with Nico playing the Flyff. Haynakuuu... Boys will ALWAYS be boys.

I'm missing a loooot of people from high school... =(


babolsh and mami pash



kuya ron-ron



lolo rj



ate maan



anakis kat



destiny, dude, pare, tol



mama ems



anakis bie



sis lexi



seatmate kim



sisturr sasa



bebesh



sis verna



ate nine



kakosa and kuya pau



sistar



cheatmate



kapwa ko corny



bhebhe



hunnie bear



jebz



soulmate



mutya



mallows ko



guru crae



ate ko


...missing them kills me...

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High school survey

1.section mo nung 4th yr?
*St. Teresa of Avila

2.adviser?
*Ms. Margarita Galang

3.anong club mo NUNG 4TH yr?
*Marian math Circle, Marian Student Volunteer

4.anong pinaka-ayaw mong subject?
*Wala. Lahat gusto ko.

pinakaayaw na teacher?
*Wala rin kasi lahat lab ko.

5. axan yung 5?
*?

6.anong student # mo?
*96-0339

7.class#?
*17

8.pinakahuling ginawa mong katarantaduhan
*uhm... pingalitan ako ng sobra ni Margarita dahil...

9.eh nagbisyo sa cr?
*nako, second classroom namin nila Verna at VM yun! Hahaha.

10.naghihilamos ka ba sa cr?
*yucky the water dun. Wahehehe.

11.anong paborito mong off limits area?
*wala naman.

12.nung 4th yr ka, maganda ba ung grad song nyo?
*oo naman. da best!

13.may nakaaway ka na rin ba?
*meron naman.

14.sino?
*chiklet!

15.nagvandal ka na ba? ano ung ginawa mo?
*hindi pa. baaad yun e.

16.ilang taon kang nag-aral ng HS?
*por

17.sa canteen ka ba naglulunch or sa classroom?
*sa room kasi bantay ako pag lunch ng gate e.

18.kung naaalala mo tlga ang hs days mo, an0
*huwatt??

19.hows the prom?
*we're promless. Hahaha.

20.name of a freshman u n ur classmates initiated
*wala pong initiation sa amin.

21.what do u do after school?
*tambay, minsan gumagawa ng thesis.

22.ever cried in front of the class?
*yup yup!

23.d0 u bring ur cellphone at skool?
*nope, bawal e.

24.do u log in on friendster when ure inside the computer lab?
*banned and friendster sa lab namin.

25.ang mga experiment papers mo bah eh binili mo o hiningi mo sa kaklase:
*binibigay samin ni sr. Ipe yun.

26.cn0 plaging ngdadala ng food sa classrumnyo?
*halos lahat. Madalas kami nila Ely, Jebz at Eileen.

27.an0 an0 nman ang dnadala nila?
*lahat ng pwedeng dalhin na chibog!

28.ever caught by ur teacher eating?
*oo, hiningi pa nga ni sr. Bohol yung brownies e. Nyahaha!

29.knino ka humihiram ng notes?
*kay Mei o kay Mama Eunice

30.eh calcu?
*may sarili akong calcu no!

31.nangopya ka ba nung NSAT/NCEE exam?
*wala kaming ganun. Tinanggal na.

32.officer ka ba sa CAT?
*tinanggal na rin yun

33.Late ka ba lagi?
*close to being one. Tee hee. :P

34.Magkano baon mo nun?
*p80

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I was about to go to sleep last night when I recieved an sms from Cis, at bago ako matulog ay napangiti niya ko :)

22:03pm
Hallmark card you can send to your ex (for the bitter ones):

FRONT OF CARD: As the days go by, I think of how lucky I am...
INSIDE: That your not here to ruin it for me!

FRONT OF CARD: I've always wanted to have someone to have and hold, someone to love
INSIDE: Adter having met you, I changed my mind.

FRONT OF CARD: I must admit you brought religion in my life...
INSIDE: I never believed in hell 'til I met you!

FRONT OF CARD: Lookin' back over the years that we've been together, I can't help wondering...
INSIDE: What the hell was I thinking?

Ayos!

Song Playin': Yellowcard's Twentythree

He loves me but my past is holding him back. I'm confused. TOTALLY confused. Can someone teach me an easy way to get through this?

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meet my gelplens!


my cotton candy



my lalabs



my jelly ace



my munchkins



my marshmallows




my eminems


And they make college life worth living! Labshs you guys!!!

Song Playin': Avril Lavigne's Tomorrow

Sometimes you have to put walls up around you not to keep people out but to see who cares enough to break them down just to be with YOU.

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Last advice. There are certain people that are perfect or close to perfection. Some are real while some are sweet, some are true and some are cute, but we do not need to settle with those people kasi no matter how perfect a person may be, all you need is just someone who is not perfect but RIGHT! -Dwight

Lakas mo talaga, pader! Tinamaan ako dun. WAHAHA.

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I'm not a good lover. I mess up. I start fights. I get jealous easily. I am demanding. And I get mad always. But there are three things I do like about myself. I don't play, I give my all and I love deeply...

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Wala akong mgawa. Mamayang 1 pa kasi klase ko e. 5 hours break. Kamusta naman 'yun? Linchak! Dana called me up. Asan daw ako, hinahanap din daw ako ni eks. Wahaha! I rule!!! :-)

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Whew! Just got home from CEU Mendiola. Nakakapagod. Urgh. Woke up at around 6:30 to meet with Glamorous Rockers in the lobby then we headed straight to CEU Mendiola riding a cab. 'Di ko tuloy naumpisahan 'yung game ni kuya Matt. Amp! And wtf, sabay ang game ni Misa and Duario so we decided to support Duario in Mr. CEU. Pero chineer naman kita kuya Matt e. ;) Wooo!!! Dwight is one of the finalists! Way to go pader! :)

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I bought burned cds at 3 for P100. Mura no? Hehehe.

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Your Love Element Is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner.For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience. You attract others with wit and a bit of flash.Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you. Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life.You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past. You connect best with: Earth Avoid: Fire You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

Your Birth Month is July

Introspective and intense, you tend to be a deep thinker.You are quiet and spiritual - and you have a unique perspective on life. Your soul reflects: Lightness, luck and an open heart Your gemstone: Ruby Your flower: Larkspur Your colors: Green and red

You Have Low Self Esteem 40% of the Time

Generally, you feel pretty darn great about who you are, even when you mess up or fail.Occasionally, a huge setback will make you question yourself, but you pick yourself up quickly.

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me"

A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out.Your heart is open to where ever love takes you! Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking What turns you off: fighting and conflict Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love

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Kasi namaaaaan! Kung manghusga KAYO ng tao akala NIYO e napakalinis niyo. 'Wag ganon. Kapaaaal e.

Song Playin': Frankie J's How To Deal

How can I hold on if there's nothing to hold on to anymore?

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Nahulog ako mula sa bubong nung isang araw at hanggang ngayon masakit ang buong katawan ko.

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Ayoko umiyak, uupakan ako ni Paulo e. E takteng 'yan, ikaw ang nagpaiyak sakin Paulo e! Tae ka. Hahaha. Pero salamat ha, nabawasan ang bigat.

Song Playin': Vertical Horizon's Best I Ever Had

How to get over him/her:

1) Cut off all communication: that means don't talk to them; delete/erase phone numbers, e-mail addresses, IM addresses, etc.; don't look upprofiles or seek them out in any way, shape or fashion. This will keep you from that urge to contact them.

2) Get rid of any gifts, notes, letters, etc. that are sentimental to you: don't give them back to your ex. Give them away to Goodwill, whatever. Do not keep them.

3) Hang out with friends.

4) Don't jump into another relationship. This is unfair to a new partner if you are not over your ex.

5) Do something active: run, exercise, go see a movie, go shopping, etc.

6) Try to think about all the things you did NOT like about your partner. People break up for a reason.

7) Write your thoughts down in a journal or write a letter to your ex about how you feel about everything... DO NOT give it to them.

8) Remember to not be afraid to be alone. It's not the end of the world and you will always find someone else down the road. It is OK to be alone.

9) Do not try and be friends with your ex UNLESS you can get over them. Once you are over them, then you can think about being friends with them. If you are not over them and you continue with contacting them, you will not be able to get over them especially when they are dating someone new.

10) Do not wallow in alcohol. It will only make you feel worse.

11) It takes time...

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Nako-konpyus ako sa maraming bagay. Hindi ko maintindihan. Ano bang meron? Bakit biglang naging ganito ka sakin? Paliwanag mo naman. Naguguluhan talaga ako e.

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Malapit nang dumating ang araw na kinatatakutan ko. Malalaman ko na ang sagot niya. Pero bakit ko pa ba kailangan marinig iyon mula sa kanya kung alam ko na naman sa sarili ko kung ano ang sasabihin niya? Self-torture. Potang 'yan.

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Last night's text convo with soulmate.

Ako: Ayokong matulog. Baka bangungutin ako't 'di na ako magising. Sino pwedeng sumama sakin?
Soulmate: San tayo pupunta?
Ako: Kahit saan. Doon sa walang makakakita.
Soulmate: May alam akong lugar. 'Di ka nila makikita. Alam mo kung saan? Dito, sa tabi ko. Tra dito. Sandal ka. Ako muna ang bahala sa'yo.

Napakaswerte ko. May soulmate akong gaya niya.

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Song Playin': After Forever's Monolith Of Doubt

She kept her beauty concealed behind a curtain of suspense
And endures her fate, moulded by an ancient culture

The honour wasn't allowed to be injured
She is going to live as her community expects her to
I find myself confined between furtive desires and feelings of guilt


These are my last words
I'm gonna leave you
I can't stand your narrow mindedness any longer
Forgive me...

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Sometimes I give in to sadness
Sometimes I don't
At times I'm part of the madness
Sometimes I won't give into you
You see the way I have been drifting down a river to nowhere
And you give me nothing

But if you're ready to be my everything
If you're ready to see it through this time
And if you're ready for love then
This I will bring
But I'm not gonna wait for you forever
This time

At times I feel myself smiling
At times I'm not
Whats with that guilt that you're styling
Baby talk
It don't look good on you
You see the way that I have been looking for a reason to go there
And you leadin' me nowhere

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Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

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There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight

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Sana maging okay na ang soulmate ko. ;'(

Mga pangyayari sa BSMT 1A ngayong araw na ito:

*may bago na kaming presidente sa block, si Santos.
*bago na rin ang aming ingat yaman, si Tenorio.
*nag-open forum kami sa block.
*si Chengtot napaupo nung Filipino.
*tawanan ever with the tropaz.
*napagalitan si Iris ni Valeriano dahil dinadaldal ko siya ('di ba dapat ako ang pagalitan?).
*nabuang si Chengtot epekto ng pagkaupo niya sa sahig.
*si Dana nakisama sa topak ni Chengtot.
*si Shaine sumasayaw sa labas ng photocopying station at nakakatawa siya.
*nabuang ako, nakakahawa si Cheng!!!
*gusto ni Lovely maging kabayo. Bwahaha!
*si Iris at Tin muntik mabangga ng tren kanina. sayang! Hahaha. Mahal ko kayo, pare!

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Nakita ko si Red!!! At kinausap niya ko!!! =)

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May chapter test na naman sa Botany Lecture bukas. Waaaaaa. Pota.

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Song Playin': Fefe Dobson's Everything

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Midterms is fast approaching. We've only got two weeks to tackle all the lessons we need to discuss. Urk. I expected this. When I entered college, I was aware of the things and changes I will encounter. I thought it'll be easier but what the heck, it's tougher! We're loaded with so much work to do. I can't barely sleep. Getting at least 4 hours of sleep is already a luxury. I'm super busy that I find it hard to hang out with my highschool friends and gahd, I miss them bigtime! But I never thought that I would enjoy college more than I enjoyed highschool. The freedom, new friends, greater and tougher challenges ahead, responsibilities and parties. Ahhh... I never experienced these things back in highschool. I love my new found friends. They make each day bright and sunny as ever and they give me lots of reasons to be raring to got to school everyday even if we have tons of paperworks to do. And red too! :P loooooove red!!

But still I miss everything from highschool... Aquinians, Avilanians, mallows, Faith, Maod, Nicko, Nicola, Lil, Amz, Alexa, Janine, Kat, Norie, Micco, Jhelver, Margarita (mamita), Sr. Ipe, Dhaddy Mhon, Ms. Portia, Ms. Gelito, Sr. Bohol (yep, true!) and a lot more.

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FIRST name?
*Iris

FIRST letter ng name ng crush mo?
*D... =)

FIRST thing na ginawa mo nang magising?
*nagbasa sa History

FIRST thing na inisip mo nang magising?
*may quiz pala sa Histo ngayon...

FIRST na tao na inisip mo pagkagising?
*si red...

FIRST na sinabi mo nang magising ka?
*anong oras na?

FIRST song na narinig mo ng magising ka?
*I'll never get over you (getting over me)

FIRST na hinawakan mo nang magising ka?
*cellphone

Ilang taon ka nang magkaroon ng first crush?
*9, hehe

FIRST real love mo?
*nung senior ako...

FIRST thing na tinitingnan mo sa guy/girl?
*face

FIRST thing na hinahanap mo sa guy/girl?
*basta... alam ko na yun!

FIRST thing na nagustuhan mo sa mahal mo?
*wala nga e... wala akong mahal... hehehe

FIRST thing na nakakaturn-off para sayo sa guy/girl?
*when he/she smokes.

FIRST thing na gusto mo sa isang tao?
*friendliness

FIRST thing na ayaw mo sa isang tao?
*mayabang

FIRST thing na gusto mo sa sarili mo?
*maganda ako... bwahahaha!

FIRST thing na ayaw mo sa sarili mo?
*i'm stupid.

FIRST time na nakausap mo crush mo?
*June pa ata yun...

FIRST kiss?
*wala... hahaha!

the LAST movie you watched?
*Just My Luck

the LAST tv show you watched?
*strawberry shortcake... hehehe!

the LAST song you heard?
*don't cha

the LAST thing you bought?
*marshmallows... love it!

the LAST perfume you bought?
*wala...

the LAST food you ate?
* Mcdo's fries

LAST thing you wore?
*my school uniform

LAST thought on your head?
*what time is it?

LAST time you went out?
*kanina lang

LAST text message to your bf/gf:
*na-miss lang kita...

LAST thing you said to yourself:
*mag-aral ka na, ineng!

LAST person who texted you:
*Conde...

LAST person na nakaaway mo:
*wala...

LAST time you saw your bestfriend:
*graduation pa...

LAST thing you drank:
*Mcdo's hot choco

LAST alcoholic beverage you had:
*san mig light

LAST thing you'll do before sleeping tonight:
*pray...

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Sometimes I feel like I'm totally over him, but something tells me that I'm still not.

I hate this... I hate this... I hate this...

...this STUPID feeling.

Song Playin': Utada Hikaru's Final Distance

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Last Friday, I wento to Glorietta to meet up with Chel. Date kami ever. Kwentuhan, chikahan and bonding. Ang sarap ng feeling na mailabas mo ang lahat ng nararamdaman mo and someone's there to listen. Sooooobrang na-miss ko ko si Soulmate. Siya lang ang soulmate ko na nakakaintindi ng lahat at nagpaparamdam na basta masaya ka, sige lang but at the same time siya rin ang isa sa mga nagsasabi sakin kapag sobra na ang ginagawa ko. Kaya mahal kita Soulmate e. Lagi lang rin ako makikinig sa'yo, kahit ano pa 'yan. Date again... Hehehe =)

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During the Botany Lab yesterday Zyron sat beside me and sang the song "Pwede Ba?". He knows it's my fave song kaya he and Nico used to do a duet of it and sing the song for me. At tuwing naririnig ko iyon, hindi ko mapigilang hindi malungkot.

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

I got this one from April's blog. It touched every part of me.

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"Come in." God said. "So, you would like to interview me?"

"If you have the time," I said.

God smiled and said, "My time is eternity and is enough to do everything. What questions do you have in mind to ask me?"

"What surprises you most about mankind?"

God answered, "That they get bored of being children, are in a rush to grow up, and then long to be children again."

"That they lose their health to make money and lose their money to restore their health."

"That by thinking anxiously about the future they forget the present, such that they live neither for the present nor for the future."

"That they live as if they will never die, and die as if they had never lived."

God's hands took mine and we were silent for a moment.

I then asked Him, "As a parent what are some of life lessons you want your children to learn?"

God replied with a smile,

"To learn that they cannot make anyone love them. All they can do is to let themselves be loved."

"To learn that what is most valuable is not what they have in their lives but who they have in their lives."

"To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others. All will be judged on their merits, not as a group on a comparison basis."

"To learn that a rich person is not the one who has the most, but is one who need the least."

"To learn that it only takes few seconds to learn profound wounds in persons we love, and that it takes many years to heal them."

"To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness."

"To learn that there are persons who love them dearly, but simply do not know how to express or show their feelings.

"To learn that money can buy everything but not happiness."

"To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it totally different."

"To learn that a true friend is someone who knows everything about them, and still like them anyway."

"To learn that it is not only enough that they may be forgiven by others, but that they have to forgive themselves."

I sat there for a while, enjoying the moment. I thanked Him for His time and for all that He has done for me and my family. He replied, "Anytime. I'm here 24 hours a day. All you have to do is ask for me, and I'll answer."

"I'll always be there."

HEEEEELLLL!!!!

We had this morning the acting workshop for the CEU Dramatic Guild and 'twas really hell! Call time is 6 am and we started at 7:45 am. How's that?! Fuck. But it was fun. The Japanese relaxation excercise made me feel free. As in free! Free from everything. It was an excercise wherein we have to close our eyes and imagin that we are puppets, that a string is pulling us up and we're dancing and jumping like well --- puppets. Hahaha. And it's all about sensory. Using your five senses. For the first time in my life I sashayed down a la Paris Hilton --- naked! Wudjubliv?! But no, I'm not literally naked, huh? As I said it was all about the senses. Tomorrow is the last day of the workshop, 7 am- 5 pm again! Gahd. Oh well, this is life... I should get used to this.

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Siguro 'pag nagkakulay na ang mundo ko sasaya na rin ako.

peyborit ko ang color red... aylabeet!!!! :-)

Umiikot ang paningin ko. Masyadong mabilis ang pag-ikot ng mundo... Hindi ko pa kayang sabayan ito.