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Tammy Tay

15/10/1991

Ai Tong Primary
Ngee Ann Primary
Ngee Ann Secondary




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Tuesday, May 06, 2008

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After nine months of this so-called "relationship", we are going through some rough patches. We are both to be blamed, I admit. He did some things that hurt me badly, it seems like as I walk along a dark road, there is someone following me, pointing a gun towards me, ready to shoot. it. I am not a perfect girlfriend, no one is. But I tried to be. Sure there were times when we'd argue about a petty thing but we'd be okay after a day or so. I didn't, for God's sake, know that THOSE misunderstandings would lead to some SERIOUS shit. I wouldn't go over the details, that would be too much of a hassle. I just want to let this out. I love him but I don't know if he still feels the same way. And sadly, even if I love him, a part of me wants to leave. How would you bring back your trust on someone who broke it many times? If I give him another chance, is there a guarantee that he won't do it again? Oh God. Torture.

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Didn't mean to take you for granted
Didn't mean to show I don't care
Didn't mean to throw away this once in a lifetime of chance
Being with you

And I'll drive for 2 hours
To bring Butterfingers
I don't mind the distance
This kismet's a dance

This time I surrender
My everything forever
Life doesn't matter
Just our souls together

Pride no longer has room in me
On bended knees in public I cry
Your name for everyone to know that I love you, I love you
Please hear me now

And I'll drive for 2 hours
To bring Butterfingers
I don't mind the distance
This kismet's a dance

This time I surrender
My everything forever
Life doesn't matter
Just our souls together

This time I surrender
My everything forever
Life doesn't matter
Just our souls together

And I'll drive for 2 hours
To bring Butterfingers
I don't mind the distance
This kismet's a dance(dance, dance)

This time I surrender
My everything forever
Life doesn't matter
Just our souls together

This time I surrender
My everything forever
Life doesn't matter
Just our souls together

This time I surrender
My everything....(my everything)..ooohh...

And I'll drive for 2 hours
To bring Butterfingers
I don't mind the distance
This kismet's a dance


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Friday, April 11, 2008

Hola! I'm baaack! After months of blog leave, I'm finally back to writing zone. Yeah! Hahaha. Curse my nasty professors! Boo. Anyway, I'm hella bored. Summer's already here and I still haven't found a job I need caaash. Damn. Mhm. I better start working up on my resume or else I will be stuk at home, bumming around the house and... gasp! I won't be able to buy more pairs of Havaianas. Boo for me. =/

Summer is just Lalala-LOOOVE.

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but I LOOOVE him more


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I miss snorkeling. This pic was actually taken last year.

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Due to boredom, I made a wislist of things I want to get this year.

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I soooo love this HK tee. Can't wait to get it! HK is really LOVE. =)


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This hoodie is from Bangkok pa, and I'll be getting it on the 2nd week of May. Waaa. Can't really wait!


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Lacoste Slim Bag (Petal Pink). I so want this but sadly, I still don't have the money. =( I saw it online for 3k something.


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Alert Black. My friend got hers for 750php online. I'm so inggit.


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Make Your Own Havaianas. If only Avianne will sell this pair...


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Kids Fairy Lilac. This is über nice. I instantly fell in love with this pair.


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I badly want this pair pero 'di ko naabutan sa AFF. So now, I'm looking for a pre-owned one online.


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Havaianas Top Aqua


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Havaianas Top Pink


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Havaianas Top Lime


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Havaianas Top Orchid


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Havaianas Top Yellow


I'm really addicted to Havaianas!!!





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Tuesday, January 01, 2008

[1]

& we could help each other off the ground,
so we never fall down again.
And what it takes i don't care.



[2]

People only talk shit out of jealousy;


they hate the fact you've got something they want.



[3]

I just want you to know

you're the one I love most.

Nobody else can take your place; no one else comes close.



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[4]

At the sight of your appearance, my smile becomes uncontrollable. The slip of your touch heals my sorrows. The look of your eye opens my heart & the blessing of your kiss fills it. The ring of your call stops my heart & the sound of your voice starts it. The company of you makes me speechless when there are so many things to say, motionless when there are so many things to do, & needy when there's only one person I want. So don't tell me I don't love you, because I do. Because of you, this is the first & only time I've ever felt like this, but I know, this is love. Because of you. <3


[5]

Boy: I love you.

Girl: How do I know that's true?

Boy: Because whenever I see you I can't stop smiling,
& when I hold you I never want to let go.
When you talk I could listen forever
& when you leave my side I want you back in my arms to never leave me, ever.


[6]

Tonight just before I went to sleep,
I thought of you and I missed you.
I reached for your sweatshirt and I slipped it over my head
and it smelt just like you...
it was like you were right there with me.
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[7]

I love the way my fingers just fall into yours.
I love how your taste still lingers on my lips after that special goodnight kiss.
I love how whenever I go to call someone I automatically dial your number.
I love how you look at me with those gorgeous eyes
& then you smile that sweet smile.
& I know right there that you will always be mine.
I love how you hug me with the intention of never letting go.
I love you more than words could ever show.


[8]

& when I first met you I never would have imagined
that I would have such strong feelings for you.
I never would have thought that I would have dreams about you
or miss being by your side or
get butterflies in my stomachwhen someone mentions your name.
When I first met you I never would have thought that i would love you.


[9]

My friends and I are the type of people
that would get hit by a parked car.


[10]

I want a guy that doesn't care about what I wear,
or how I do my hair,
who loves my smile and my dorky laugh,
and how I get hyper when I'm tired,
who would never want to see me cry,
at least not out of sadness,
and who would do those small things that make my day,
just because he knows it would make me happy.


[11]

him: what if I promised we'd go out forever?
her: you can't promise that.
him: if anyone can, it'd be me.
her: what if another girl comes along?
him: there is no other girl. there's only you.
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[12]

He's not the kind of guy you date.
He's the kind of guy you marry.


[13]

So, she could give you the whole damn world-
and you ache because she won't.
Boy, there's a girl in the corner who wants to give you
her whole damn heart.<3


[14]

Girl: "What do you want to be when you grow up?"

Boy: "Your Husband."


[15]

Every day i wonder why he saw me
when a thousand other girls saw him.


[16]

Her: So I love this boy.

Him: Yeah, I think I know him.

Her: He's pretty amazing.

Him: Yeah he's one lucky guy.

Her: We're pretty good together

Him: Yeah, the perfect couple.It's like a fairytale ending.

Her: Except I pray it never ends.

Him: We're never going to end.

Her: I know.
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[17]

[on the phone]

him: i love you.

her: i love you too.

him: no but i love you.

her: yeah, i love you too.

him: listen, I LOVE YOU.

her [grinning from ear-to-ear]: i love you too.

him: there's that smile i was looking for.


[18]

You said my heart sounded like a payphone in the rain. Distorted, distant, scrambled, and desperate.


[19]

Like my favorite record, you're a little overplayed
and like my favorite summer you'll never fade away. <3


[20]

Barefoot or first thing in the morning, I feel beautiful.

I didn't always feel that way, but I feel that way now.

When somebody just loves you,

and when you make somebody else happy,

when your presence seems to make them happy,

you suddenly feel like the most beautiful person in the world.


[21]

His finger traced 'I love you' in the palm of my hand.
Thats the only time my stomach's ever hit the floor like that.


[22]

He has something worth tripping over.
I just didn't know I would fall so hard.


[23]

I wanna be the girl he yells out to into the hallway saying,
"i LOVE YOU BABE"
not caring who hears it- but just cares if i do.


[24]

girl: what would you like to lose, if you had to?your sight, your hearing, your voice?

boy: my heart. so it won't hurt when i can't see your face, when i can't hear your voice & when i can't say i love you.
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[25]

Honey, don't promise her forever.
She might do something silly and believe it.


[26]

I believe in love and lust and sex and romance.
I don't want everything to add up to some p e r f e c t e q u a t i o n .
I want mess and chaos.
I want someone to go crazy, out of his mind for me.
I want to feel passion and heat and sweat and madness and all the rest of that crap.
I want it all.


[27]

Your voice is like a symphony, it's like a soft, slow tone,
I could listen to the rest of my life.<3<3


[28]

No matter what someone tells you, there is a person out there that is meant to wake up next to you every morning.


[29]

And he looked at me, with the same look in his eyes as the first day we met. And I knew, right then, I could never let him look at anyone else that way again.


[30]

He’s the only one who has enough of me to break my heart.
He’s all that I need to fall into.


[31]

He was holding her tight so she couldn’t leave
but he didn’t realize she had no reason to go.


[32]

Because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody,
you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.


[33]

People ask me why its so hard to trust people.
And I ask them why is it so hard to keep a promise.


[34]

I'm no little girl anymore, for anyone whose hurt me, teased me, or two timed me.
I'm not going to plan out how to make your life a living hell
or tell you I'm gonna beat your ass.
I'm gonna do something way better.
I'm gonna sit here and tell you,
Karma's a bitch, you'll get your bitch.


[35]

If you're willing to chase me,I promise I'll run slow, just for you.
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[36]

You're a jerk & you're immature. You flirt entirely too much & sometimes I just want to strangle you.
But on top of that, I just want to let you know you're my everything.


[37]

It's amazing. Some people, they just say these small little things,
one sentence and it changed the way you feel about them in an instant.
Small little words that can hurt you so much
or make you fall deeply in love forever.
It changes everything, nothing between you is everreally the same again,
even if they don't know it, it still happens.


[38]

True love is when you fight but everything you said you didn't mean.
And even when he's mad at you, you still love him as much as you always have.
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[39]
While every other girl doodles hearts in her notebook,
I doodle tiny stars;
little wishes for everything to turn out okay.
[40]
Our teacher told us to highlight anything we want;
so i went up to you
and marked you with my highlighter.
[41]
She's just a girl trying to find herself
in this huge world without a map.
[42]
You're that guy,
the one no matter how many more guys I go through,
I'll always have a thing for you.
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[43]
I'm going to marry you someday.
So make sure you plan your life accordingly.
[44]
And I don't know where you take me.
But it's exactly where I wanna be.
[45]
I know people are sick of me talking about you;
but my heart isn't sick of loving you.
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[46]
I don't know why I fell for you,
maybe it was just on accident.
[47]
You said you would die for me,
you must live for me too.
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[48]
If I could have just one dance with you,
I would pick a song that never ends.
[49]
You make my heart feel something it's never feelt before. And every time I see you, I fall in love a little bit more.
[50]
And i found myself looking for his imperfections.
And when I found them,Ii didn't think twice about it.
I decided that they just don't matter anymore.
[51]
She was the kind of girl who didn't fall in love easily,
until he came along & changed everything..
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[52]
Once again, we sit questioning mortality,
living beyond borders. But isn't that what it's all about?








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Saturday, November 24, 2007

I can't help but feel a little down lately. Everytime I look at myself in the mirror I always end up bashing how terrible I look. Gaaaadddd. I don't look like a hideous monster or something, but damn I'm totally underweight. I've been like this for years (my friends can attest to that). It's not that I don't eat that much, I always pig out, really but somehow I still don't get it why I haven't gain weight. I'm totally desperate, man. I just hope the medicine I asked Crae to but for me will work. Pleaaasse.


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Saturday, November 17, 2007

People think that once you've fallen in love, with that boy who's willing to give you his whole heart, promises you the world and all that shit, you're totally saved from experiencing any more heartbreak... Those people are completely wrong. No one in this world, no boy, no matter how perfect he may seem, can promise you a heartbreak-free relationship. Sure he may seem perfect, and he gives you that unexplainable feeling that no amount of words in the dictionary strewn together will ever be remotely close enough to describe how it really feels to be in love with him and to have him love you back. It's that feeling you get, where you cant stop smiling after you talk to him and you still get butterflies in your stomach and that huge smile across your face every time you see him , that lets you know he will always mean something to you. But behind all that, there's a hidden world of lies, hurt, betrayal and deceit just waiting to happen. I had to learn that the hard way. Oh boy, did I ever.

It's a tiring cycle, a roller coaster of emotions.

For now, I just wanna forget all the crap that he's been putting me through. Anyway, I still got lotsa shits to do. I'll update if I have time.


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Friday, October 12, 2007

I really need to stop spending too much money. I can't believe I actually spent P1000+ last Monday and P500 everyday. Goddamn. Ease up on Starbucks and foods, baby!


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Thursday, October 11, 2007

It's almost the finals and I can't get that crap outta my head. Bleed. And I envy my friends who started their sem breaks already. And here I am STUCK. Anyway, my Values class just finished a while ago and the topic was damn interesting. We tackled legal separation, divorce, live-ins, OFWs and a lot. When our prof asked who among us has folks working abroad, I was one of the VERY FEW who stood up. She then asked each of us how that case affected us/our family/ourselves. And i said, since I didn't grow up being with my dad, I really got used to it. It's nothing but a normal thing for me. I kinda got immuned. As long as I get financial support, it's OK. That's what really matters to me. I think that's what happens to you when you grow up in a broken family. Sad in a way, yes. You get what I mean? Ha ha. Then her question got me: "In the future, would you like your husband to leave your children?" And I answered, "Of course not." in a low, sad voice. And again, about the live-in thingy, she asked if there is among us who would prefer live-ins. I guess you know what happenes next. Yes, I was the ONLY ONE who raised a hand. LOL! I'm not talking shit here but in a way I would really consider it since I don't want to be divorced or anything. Live-in for me is a way to still get to know my partner. I guess you could say that even without live-in you can still get to know you bf/gf but once you're living in the same roof, the real thing happens, buttered wives and all. I wouldn't want to be one. Who does, right? I wouldn't want to end up like mom and dad who got separated (but not legally though) because of some reasons. And AGAIN she caught me with a question: "Would you like your children to have live-ins when they grow up?" I wasn't able to answer. You know why? Because at the back of my mind, I know that is wrong. Am I sounding or talking so ironic? LOL.

I'm just being honest here. No shit. :-)

LSS: Panic! At The Disco's I Write Sins Not Tragedies


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